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i think i'm having moodswings. or i maybe i just feel stressed. and my seat in front is so damned boring i think i should be better off dead. i can't sms, i can't eat sweet, i can't talk, basically i can't move or do anything. ok i'm exaggerating.

whatever. anw today when we were watching the chinese chopin life story cartoon i only like, took out my notebook to write homework down and huanglaoshi immediately turned and looked at me like i'm committing some big crime. like whatever can! dajingxiaoguai. no, should be dajingSIAOguai.

ok i think this particular person hates me. and someone described me and kimyung as.. hmm nevermind.. i don't understand why. so weird can. omg i'm getting a sad and scary feeling): i think i'm really too stressed.

*breathe in breathe out* inhaaallleeeee 2,3,4 exhalleeeee 2,3,4 ehhh where did that phrase come from. so familiar. haha. oh i'm taking part in the interschool skating competition): not like i want liddat. my mum forcing me, for what la. "because hpps is sponsoring for the first event and then just join many events and get cca points!" whatever la, so lame can. cheapskate, and my starting position so xin ku.. haiya if they gao luan when it's my turn plus my panic on that day i sure fall in the starting position.. haha -.-''

practice makes perfect! lala.. i don't like cello.. so sian.. stupid masterclass.. stupid exam song.. play can sleep one la. so sian. z z z z z z z z z z z z i'm getting sleepy. 8am tmr again. oh yea, my life is VERY-THE-BORING.

monday: auntiemuileng's tuition, practise cello for cca
tuesday: cca, practise for piano lesson
wednesday: piano lesson, practise for cca
thursday: cca
friday: practise for cello lesson
saturday: iceskating, cello lesson, learning point(z z z z), do jiang hmwk
sunday: jiang (triple z z z ), complete homework dued on monday, do auntiemuileng's tuition hmwk or die a horrible death even though she's my auntie

on top of that there's all the projects and lousy irritating OM AND MORE OM and the school homework. plus normally on friday i have to stay back to complete stuff like IT flash and assignments or art or stuff i didn't do that was dued. and then after sunday the cycle repeats again.

boring can? nothing to look forward to. plus afterall i have basically no time to enjoy anything special or do anything fun. every minute i have homework or practise in mind -.-'' i want to get some 40 degree celcius fever then i get sent to the hospital. or maybe getting into a coma would be good. at least i get to sleep lots. haha. i really want to get sick, someone feed me poison so i can sleep at home instead of going to school and wasting time. (yes waste of time, esp lessons like langarts, SLACK CAN)

my mum's rushing me to sleep.
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I GOT A FREAKING 143 FOR MY CELLO EXAM AND I'M SUPPOSED TO BE HAPPY RIGHT? BUT NO ONE IN MY FAMILY CONGRATUALTED BE OR SHOWED ANY SIGNS OF FEELING HAPPY FOR ME BECAUSE MY FREAKING PARENTS ARE SO TOTALLY QUARRELLING.

HOW GREAT CAN MY LOVELY LIFE GET?


NOT.
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it's saturday tmr. i don't like saturdays anymore. because i'm devastated about my coach not letting me take my test for iceskating... and cello starts tmr. boohoo): plus stupid learning point! ahh.. stupid lousy quiet class. and i fail everything):

oh and that stupid cello masterclass. i thought it was obvious that wanghuan is playing.. wahlao i think i'm going to freak out like crazy and tremble like crazy. maybe i should just take some poison water and drink the night before then i don't need to go to school:D haha. good idea right. if not i shall just faint on the spot. bleah

fiona's sad.. because of something she read.. on someone's blog. oh shit.. i just realised i'm going to like bore everyone to death on the masterclass day because i'm the only lan one which is pathetically only g3 -.-'' and guess what i'm playing. a exam piece -.-'' too bad. nothing to play.

i feel like disappearing from this world. byebye everyone. say bye forever to audrey:D
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i love dachangjin!!
i am SOOO ahead of channel U. haha. i watched till like, episode 20+ in three days! and im like, in love with it! little changjin is sooo damn cute! haha. dachangjin is the best korean serial. haha

and i went jet ski-ing in bintan, and i was so afraid that i would just fall into the sea and get eaten up by some stupid big fish. haha. ohoh and i'm tanned. i think that's bad. i don't like to be so tanned. boo. and one day i was stoning at this swimming pool cos' the beach beside it where my family was at was dirty and yucky.

and can you imagine having to look at like, two or three couples directly facing my direction just across the pool kissing and hugging and touching everywhere for like, one thousand minutes. eeee how yucky. i was like, looking around cos' i was seriously bored and stoning like crazy and i saw this couple kissing and hugging (YUCK) and i think like, 10mins later they were still doing the same thing. btw, i was so not staring can. and then i think they had contact on each others' lips for at least 3mins without tearing apart. double yuck? i better stop talking about this it's so disgusting. haha. so, people should never act so disgustingly in public.

yes i love dachangjin!!! (i am not following channel U haha why so coincidental!)
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this is really random but i feel retarded. maybe it's because there's no one for me to fall for and everytime i think about seeing you or when i actually see you i feel really weird. the feeling's like, are you noticing me? are you even stealing a glance at me or hoping to catch my eye? or is it that you've forgotten about me and you don't care anymore?

i really wish i'll never see you again and maybe i'll just delete you off from my contact and everything so i can treat it like you've never existed. yes, that'll do, right? or will it not? oh sheesh. if only someone would come by to help me forget those memories of times that we spent together.

like when you told me all those really sweet things that can practically make me float up to the sky, that i'm the only one, that i'm really pretty and perfect and everything. i really wonder if everything was true, that you meant it, or was it all a lie? some people tell me that i'm pretty and whatever but really, isn't it all only to please me? gosh if only the world was made in such a way that people don't lie.

omg i need to snap out of everything and the fantasy. SNAP SNAP. the world is really unfair):











there's nothing much to blog about LSC right? besides the fact that those piggies from two four really suck like crazy and i wish i can slap them or step on them REALLY HARD. yes of course being a high S person i really hold grudges and please don't provoke me or i'll hate you all my life.

I LOST MY ROSIN BOOHOO):
i just added in a vitual pet and it's really cute. haha. when you press on the puppy treats a treat will appear on your cursor and click anywhere at the top of the picture and the puppy will jump up to eat it. how cute can it get. haha.







i stayed to watch the whole nationals competition ytd and it was really nice. the last four pro people i esp, that china girl was so graceful! her spins were really so nice i almost melted on the spot. haha. she can be like, saki's standard. haha. alexi improved alot, when she's performing she's like laughing away as if she's not nervous at all. PLUS I'M SO DYING FOR THE NATIONALS JACKET I AM SO TOTALLY JOINING NATIONALS NEXT YEAR FOR THAT LOVELY JACKET. haha the jacket rocks and i can like show it off outside =P i hope it's personalised next year. and i'm thinking about inter-school this year june. my mum wants me to join cos i get CCA points even if i lose. HAHA how funny so i shall join but oh who shall be my partner for jump and spin? i want the spin!!! i'm never good at jumping. haha. I WANT NATIONALS JACKETTTT














sometimes i really wish that when people compliment me it's right from the bottom of their hearts and that they mean it. sometimes i wish you would tell me i'm pretty again.
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YES CAMP'S OVER HURRAH HURRAHHHH HURRAAAHH HAPPY HAPPY.

eeeee i miss my bed i miss my piano i don't miss you computer. too bad. haha. i don't miss you cello. i don't mind not playing on you for a few years. haha. lalalala. i love my piano i love my bed i love my house!! yes yes yes. and i'm gna go watch a movie soon! yes i'm damned happy right now. anyway some frustrations:

two four sucks like crap(okay maybe not all of them BUT) esp. that stupid pig ass. she is such a fat idiot. i hate two four. two ten rocks 1000000000 times more. too bad nice people in two four. that person sucks so too bad including that sucky two other people who scolded us along with that pig ass.

yup cos that stupid pig thinks she's damned good. if only amazing race was like, the second day of camp, when two four comes i'll be like (cos' im a station master and i happen to remember they missed our station and got penalty cos' they were late i think) telling the pig ass and those two pig accomplices "EXCUSE MEEEEE YOU ARE LATE SO TOO BAD PLEASE GO AWAY AND WE'LL WRITE YOU AS ONE THOUSAND MINUTES AND 3 MINUTES FOR PENALTY. YES GO AWAY!!!! NOW!!!!!!!" i'll practically scream anyway. whatever.

so bathing sucks. even though i learnt that two ten people are damned nice compared to two four bitches. eeee need to go for movie liao. continue later!
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lifeskills camp in like two days time! should i be happy or sad. haha. minjun's away and fiona's really sad. haha anyway i got one less person to talk to. stupid janabel was groaning and moaning about her SABRINA or whoever and fiona says she's as sad as her. one's a les and the other is obsessed. tsk. moaning people. just because the sec 3s are away for OBS. haha.

i forgot what i wanted to blog about. omg this is so lame. i haven't done TKAM& stupid maths things. PLUS student portfolio. this is horrendous. terrible, horrible, vegetable. okay what am i saying. oh yes before i forgot.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TIFFANY ANGEL!
(yes i didnt forget!)
HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY ZHENPING EX-MORTAL!

yup and may everyone's wishes come true and everyone lead a happy life!
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random:
I MISS SKATINGGGGGG):
dummy iceskating rink.

dieting time. haha.

i need to pack and i need some inspiration for my TKAM. give me inspiration!!! i dont want CCA tmr. i feel tortured:D